2008/03/18
Betrayal I want to let everyone know something... in the few weeks since my last post, a ton of things have happened. A person that I know asked me to be in his wedding a while back... originally I told him Yes... however... some things occurred... and I decided that it would be better if I withdrew my acceptance of his offer to be in his wedding... well, after that, as if I could have planned it better, it would seem that our friendship has ceased to exist. My reasons for not being in his wedding stem from my stay in prison. I am holding a grudge. I still hold it for every single person that didn't come and visit me (the question isn't who didn't come, cause it's far shorter to tell you who did come).
You have heard me complain about this many times... you've heard my rants, you read my posts, and you've listened to my raves... And, yet, with all of that, I cannot impress on you the impact that this whole few years has had. I don't mind beating a dead horse. I am also telling you all that I can not get over it... everytime I see these people... I wonder what was so important, and they couldn't come and see me in prison... I've heard the excuses: money and time... but that still doesn't tell me why... while you were having these money problems (even though a ride to my prison would be free if you rode with my girlfriend who was more than willing to have anyone ride along --- no one took her up on it though) did you find time to go out to the bars at all? YOUR GOOD FRIEND IS SITTING IN PRISON AND YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE THE CONSIDERATION FOR YOUR FRIEND TO SUPPORT HIM IN HELL... GREAT FRIENDS YOU ARE... I do not feel as though I did anything wrong to my friends to have them not visit... I will tell you all that my friends will get from me what they give me... nothing... I will still talk to them... I will still run the routine... but I am declaring a new start... a start when my friendship can be bought and paid for... God knows earning and trusting friends are only in the movies...

"While you are suffering, know that I have betrayed you"

That quote is exactly how I feel... like I was told by everyone: "Scott, while you are rotting in prison, and you need your friends and support the most... the worst time anyone can ever imagine... we won't be there... we won't even try..."

All I can say, is game over. // sk0t @ 10:57 PM :: Comments [3] :: Digg This ::