2008/02/19
Disguises As humans, there are times when we are forced to 'blend' into a situation. We change our tone, we change our actions, we do things we wouldn't normally do... we modify who we are to become who we should be at a particular time. I've lived a lot of my life blending into the crowd. Trying to be someone I am not. I used to fear getting caught, I used to dread the day when my most darkest of secrets would come out... For now, I know I am safe... but I think my days are numbered.

*Who am I? -- A question that crosses my mind often.
*Why can't I be to you, what you are to me? -- Something else that crosses my mind.

I am working on my understanding of why some people are better friends than others... If I can help someone... I will... If someone just needs to talk... I will listen... If someone just needs to get out... I will drive...

...but if someone needs a friend... they will call someone else...

I can tell you all that this is a reoccurring theme in my head. It is a paradox because I genuinely don't care about the happenstance or circumstances of people around me. It's not that I am an inconsiderate prick or anything, I just find the struggles I have in my own life more consuming that others... but I am always there to lend a hand in need. Maybe its because I was gone for so long, and I forsaken by all but one. Or maybe I have brought all of this upon myself... or maybe even I am just a horrible person who deserves to burn in the flames of my own creation... I don't know...

They say that the past comes back to haunt you... in my case... I can look back at a troubled past, and look on to a tested future... // sk0t @ 12:16 AM :: Comments [0] :: Digg This ::