2007/08/04
My 3 Weeks Out of Prison As of Friday, August 3rd, I have been out of prison for three weeks. I can tell you that life is hard, albeit I am not in prison, but things aren't easy. I have no job (no source of income). I have no money. I have no aspirations of a future full of hope and glory anymore. I am realistically thinking about the long explanations to prospective employers about my criminal record, and lack of work history for the past 5 months, and detail about my past... it is a future not worth waiting for. I have goals... but my goals are out shined by a reality of hopelessness. I had a dream once, but it was lost in 2 felony convictions. I am soon to be 25, I have been to prison, I dont have a job, and I don't have many friends. Life isn't what it was cracked up to be. It isn't the life I wanted. I know, I know, 'Things WILL get better'. But I ask: "Will they?" I heard a story that we are all predetermined for success... have I lost my chance at being something more than just an ex-con with a little smarts? Or is there hope? I can't see it.

I am filled with a burning hatred and an undying contempt for who I am right now. And as of now I don't foresee a change. God does work in mysterious ways... hopefully his mystery becomes my reality. // sk0t @ 11:30 PM :: Comments [3] :: Digg This ::