2006/09/25
*Introspection* I have had quite some time to sit and think of who I am as a person, and who I am as a man... both of which are not necessarily mutually exclusive. Since May of last year I have been living in a downward spiral of emotional and spiritual loss. Some days it is so long that an end isn't a plausible though, and others it seems that the end is coming too soon. Onto a topic that you all want to know about, but wont ask: PRISON. I have come to terms with the fact that I am going to spend time in prison. I am going to be locked up, away from my family and very few friends, and I am going have to spend time having every second of my life managed by people who couldn't care less whether I am rehabilitated of ravaged. To some, it would be a death sentence, because the possibility of incarceration is incoherent because the plausibility of a situation of that magnitude would never occur. But to me, this is reality. I deal with the fact that sometime in the next few months I will be sitting in a prison cell wondering how fast the outside world is moving without me... wondering what my family is doing, wondering how I am going to come out of this a better man... and if that is even possible. No one can understand the toll that takes on a man... You people cant grasp the feeling of helplessness that plagues me. I like to think that I take everything in stride, and that Gods plan is unwavering... and I wont question Gods reasons... but I don't have to understand it.

I would like to try and get a hold of everyone before I am sentenced. So please get a hold of me. // sk0t @ 4:18 AM :: Comments [2] :: Digg This ::