2006/08/05
Day of Reckoning It has been quite sometime since I have had a revelation that caused me to introspectly ponder who I am.
Things have been on a downhill slope for me... with somethings happening in my life that I cant discuss online, and situations socially that just leave me left in a puddle of my own filth. And I have had alot of time to think... well as of tonight, I have come to some conclusions. First off is that I don't have many REAL friends. I wont name the friends I have and that I dont have because it is no ones business but my own. And another revelation that has come to me is that: I just dont fit in. I can't compete with friends that have been friends since 4th grade, since I dont have any friends like that, it is difficult. The people I hang out with now all have their new cliques or their old cliques, and to me, it seems, that there isnt enough room for one more, hence all my posts about being left out, and being uninvited. For what it seems, it can not be, for what I know, it is.

"Don't walk in front of me; I might not follow. Don't walk behind me; I might not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend."
---Albert Camus // sk0t @ 3:11 AM :: Comments [2] :: Digg This ::